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Not one of my best poems, but I was just thinking and writing.

What ever happened to going on dates?

Picking them up at 7 on a cloudless Friday night to dinner and a movie?

Going out for a stroll or some coffee simply to have a small conversation, when deep down you know it’s because you want to be around them just to get to know them better?

What ever happened to giving her flowers?

Giving him gifts?

The butterflies in your stomach as you receive your first kiss?

Cuddling on the sofa as you watch nightmare on elm street?

Wishing if he were to kill you in your dreams, you could kiss them once more?

What ever happened to making things official?

What ever happened to keeping things exciting, inventing new ways to miss each other?

Letting each other know how you feel?

Having respect towards each other’s feelings?

Making them feel good?

What ever happened to being faithful?

Introducing them to your family?

Giving them random hugs and kisses that would make them feel loved?

What ever happened to promise rings as a symbol of one’s care for one another?

What ever happened to that promise ring evolving into a vow promising your love till death do you part?

What ever happened to that work of art? That same one your heart constructed?

Untitled.

I learned how to build a tough shell around my tender heart for protection

Yet you hammered right through

I learned to drown out all emotions with heavy noise

Yet you silenced it

I learned to disguise it’s taste adding repulsive seasoning

Yet you ate it

I learned to conceal it by adorning it with dark unknown colors 

Yet you undressed it in a beat

I learned to encircle it with an obscure unpleasant scent

Yet you sported it like cologne

I learned that no matter how many road names I changed, or tracks I rearranged,

You found your route to it

<3 

Who likes men who sparkle like glitter ? I sure don't.

By now I think everybody knows I belong to TEAM JACOB <3


I love Edward Cullen but I just think Jacob has more to offer and is just the one I’d prefer to be with. If I were to put myself in Bella’s situation, it would have not been easy to choose but I would have been more analytical about the situation. Think about it. In Jacob’s words, do you think if Alice would have never seen Bella jump off the cliff she would have eventually seen she was in love with Jacob and they would have been together. There is such thing as life without Edward she just doesn’t choose it. Jacob Black does not deserve Bella though. She is too whiney, selfish and inconsiderate at times.



Both these guys have there pros and cons, i just like my werewolf better.

Edward Cullen. The perfect faced, intelligent, strong, and mature vampire everyone is in love with. Very brooding, poetic, musician, drives fast cars LOL everyone would think he is my guy. But, he prioritizes Bella over everything else. Sure, I would love to have a boyfriend who cares so much about me, but to always be there, always be so overprotective and so strict ? I would just move in with my father. And would I want a boyfriend who would lie to me to make me feel better ? Ah, NO, don’t think so ! His own beauty makes you feel insignificant and low LOL & his body temperature is too cold, i dont want to feel like im an icebox thanks. Also, aren't his lovey dovey statements and comparisons just a bit over the top and corny ? Like bitch, please ?! LOL

Jacob Black on the other hand, is beautiful, intelligent, creative, strong, honest, and fun---(the list could go on forever)---and after all, human. He has an actual personality, very charming and confident i must say (:  & he can BUILD fast cars (take that Edward) LOL. He is the type of guy who as a boyfriend will care for you, treat you great, you will always be having fun with him. Sure, get him angry and see what happens, but he loves you so much he has that self control over himself (: & sure he can be a bit selfish and immature at times, but then again its something we all have that needs to be let out here and there. Nobody is perfect, not even Edward Cullen. You can see yourself with him, getting old together with beautiful little kids running around, along side your family and friends no one getting hurt, no one in constant danger…living life how it should be, not in a fantasy world with a disgusting diet. But, if you were to ever be in any danger, he will be the first one there protecting you without hesitating. & of course HEAT. whats a little extra heat going to do to you ? ;) i personally prefer the heat to the cold.

 
 
My reasons are not biased, and i am NOT a Jacob fan because of the actor who plays his role. Though Taylor Lautner is the most amazing guy ever and the guy I would love to be with for the rest of my life, that has nothing to do with Jacob vs. Edward. He gets his own seperate praise & tribute... coming soon in a blog ;)


Team Jacob,
because real men don't sparkle like princesses in tiaras ;D

Dream BIG, if not...just go to school

So im learning how to play the guitar right ? Yeah, my fingers ache every goddamn day but i mean, practice makes perfect right ? I swear i play like 2 hours a day and that will increase once i get it to work with my new school schedule.


so my music frenzy began again, not that it wasn’t in play, just that it died out a bit after I started songwriting in the 6th grade with the band i was in. how i miss the old days, where my lyrics weren’t so rich in meaning and things that now cause stress were so lenient. im in this little world of mine where i see myself walking through the streets of Vancouver, or Michigan with Taylor Lautner, how i dream ; or me performing live at the VMA's with millions of fans watching. the dream that many people out there wish, especially when young in age: stardom.

is not all about the stardom, i see it as the pursuit of happiness. i KNOW that's where i should be, i KNOW that's what i should be doing...aren’t we all entitled to be happy? i mean sure, like my mom tells me: for things like those you need to start young..ah, hello, im only 18 ?! i know what she means though. like young young since diapers and all that bullshit, and that’s what makes me upset the most the fact that i didn’t take my childhood and make a good productive use of it. then again what is a 7 year old supposed to do about a crazy Dominican mom who by culture abide to the law: "education is your future" not that i disagree but i mean i want to sing, i want to perform in front of thousands of peoples, i want to do what i love to do & make money doing that...that’s happiness. i still think, better yet i KNOW i can do this and I WILL do it. i look up to people like Taylor Swift for instance who started when she was 12 and kept fighting till she got where she wanted. how long did it take her...6 years ! if that means im going to have the #1 hit on billboard for weeks when im 25 then by all means....

you need to fight for what makes you happy & stick to it. don’t listen to the negative people tell you, they just don’t have the courage to stand up for themselves and envy those who can. for my Dominicans who know what im talking about: DONT LISTEN TO YOUR MOM ! I am and always have been the number one rebel in the family, not out of disrespect, or ignorance but because i do what I believe is right and what i believe will get me where I want to be...not where they want me. I hope today's youth instead of worrying about the unnecessary things follow their dreams, and be smart about them.

in the words of Aerosmith, "Dream On" & don't forget Dream BIG.